Therapy, Part Quatro / by M. Dionne Ward

The greatest thing about today is that there is no fear about anything, anymore. There is no anxiety about the future. There is no questioning the past. There just is...

Everything is everything, and if that is over your head, well, shame on you. I would like to think that as I speak to the doc he has an idea about what he wants to accomplish with my therapy. Just the same, I have an idea about where I want to go with my life. This idea many not always play out as I want, but I try my best to accomplish everything that I can. Today is no different, and tomorrow will be nothing special. I approach them the same: complete and total acquiescence to God's will.

Sometimes you can see the fear coming, but you allow it to wash over you, rushing past like water, flowing by and away. No one has said there won't be fear. To add to that, there is not much we can control in life. Emotions come as they will. Life throws you curve balls that you can't hit. But you can control the way you react to the emotions you have. That is all we can control- everything else belongs to God.

I do regret some things, but I can't change them. So what? I have to live with myself and all that I have done. I am fine with that. My mind remains calm. My thoughts remain on the future and that which I can change. There is no anger. There is no fear. There is just me and my love for God and my family. That's all I need.

Next week is the last session. I think it will be a grand conclusion to an eye opening experience. I am thankful to the Lord for the justice He has given me.